thank you

I used to cry
when things were so dark
and ask god why s/he didn't love me
thinking that s/he loved me more than
that was happening in my life

oh but damnit
s/he does
 I put a time restraint on love
but it wasnt my time to appreciate it
to truly appreciate I

I have someone who does for me
not because I ask
because I deserve
not with exception
not with the need of receiving back from me
but because he is truly good

cause I needed to wait
to understand
to accept
and to let it be

I told him I wouldn't say I love you any more
only because it was so hard for him to say it
and the other night I decided
I am ging to tell u I love you
through the discomfort
through th econfliction
through th hurt of it being said back

because I  do
and I want you to hear it
to see
to feel
to know

and so,
you said it
through drunken words
and I held my breath
and you repeated it two more times after
snuggled n my breast
in the place you find comfort
in me

so thank you universe for giving me love when
I finally know what. to do with it
I bask, shower, envelope, and develop it
thank you for loving me this much that you gave m person who loves
me and all my life
and his mom who understands

I promise to take care of this man
even when I want punch him cuz im hungry,
but he feeds me because he understands me need to be fed
in lov and food and acceptance
thank you