Trying?

I guess Im trying to push a good man away
I guess Im trying to see if he will stay
When Im a bitch
When Im mean
WhenI am indecisive
When I am angry at the world
When I am angry at him for wanting to care for me and
Know it has absolutely nothing to do with him
Cus he wants to make me happy
Because it is what we both deserve , as great people
 So, wy do I do that?
 To him?

Yup, im a bitch
Im self centered
Im self preserving
I am taking care of me and mine

Trying to push you away
to see if youll stay
will you leave and run
will u gather those pieces of hard moments to make em fit
in this jigsaw of a life that we (my kids and I) are in
Can you fit
Why would you want to fit, here?

Insecurities have been re-estbalished in my mental
And I knowI am an amazing woman
but....

lets just be.

Carlos- my person