gone too soon

I call y'all
The people I love the most
In the most awkward hours
Cause thats when Im alive
Thats when y words are strongest
Thats when I'm the boldest

the words I speak are truest
 im ay not remembering days after
none the less
they're honest
they're true
they're raw
im discombubulated
im a fuckin mess
im me

I love y'all
all yall
I go deep go hard
I go raw
for yall

my folks are life
yall be my world

you don't answer those midnight hour calls
no fault of yours
im just in a place of solitude
trying to find companionship
and no one will ever be there for long

I want to smoke a cigarette.
don't want to walk out agin
cuz I may wake y'all and bejudeged
again
wontleaveme alone
to be alone
to not be judged
cuz theres judgment

Tired
exhausted
frightful
tangled
rejected
judged
condemned

god, please release me of this
please