Resolve

My my goodness, I love me. As a 36/37 year old woman. I get complacent, confused and doubtful....but I don't lose faith in me. I don't need(may want) a man to
, God forgive me, complete me....but he won't. I'm learning to cruise my life still feeling accomplished...identified, free, together.
I've had so many dreams of a man; but only sexually. He will not do anything that I cAnt do for myself. I feel blessed.  I never checked into relationships. I take my time my time. I love it, yes I let go.  Maybe I will never have a normal Caleb a man, and I am OK with that. I want to teach my children to be strong with or without a person in their lives . Never to sacrifice for comfort sake. Love and be loved for your words but never for anything less. It is a very hard thing to do.  But it is so worth it. Love you all the time and it's a person can't love you more than you love yourself they're not worth loving and keeping in your life. They don't deserve you.

Manifest Lauryn

You see I loved hard once, but the love wasn't returned 
I found out the man I'd die for, he wasn't even concerned 
And time it turned, 
He tried to burn me like a perm 
Though my eyes saw the deception, My heart wouldn't let me learn 
From um, some, dumb woman, was I, 
And everytime he'd lie, he would cry and inside I'd die. 
My heart must have died a thousand deaths 
Compared myself to Toni Braxton thought I'd never catch my breath 
Nothing left, he stole the heart beating from my chest 
I tried to call the cops, that type of thief you can't arrest 
Pain suppressed, will lead to cardiac arrest 
Diamonds deserve diamonds, but he convinced me I was worth less
when my peoples would protest, 
I told them mind their business, cause my s*** was complex 
More than just the sex 
I was blessed, but couldn't feel it like when I was caressed 
I'd spend nights clutching my breasts overwhelmed by God's test 
I was God's best contemplating death with a Gillette 
But no man is ever worth the paradise MANIFEST