June 28,2010 Monday

Today I told Rashaan I wanted to write a book, same as I told my father yesterday. As I told her this, she drove past a book store of some sort in LA and as she glanced tot he right, the word she saw was "WRITER". She gasped out, ""It's an omen!" And so it shall be. -I believe The Alchemist has resonated enough in me, as well as life experiences to heed signs. I guess it started out before 6th grade, with my fascination for calligraphy and quill pens..yesterday I eyed beautiful set of antique calligraphy tips and followed soon after by telling my dad that I wanted to write a book. "Then do it."

Frame of mind? Wishes, hopes and prayers , for my daughter. Eyes like mine, staring back at me. face, identical to mine through as strong lineage. Life that I will shape to be different from the rest of my women. It begins here.

Inspiration is all around me. But, its my desire for inspiration that guides me. To where it is almost yielding me~ to stop~ for the fear that it'll be my greatest release. To not be alone anymore in the dark ( I almost begin to cry as I type here now-because it is put out as truth for all to read/HEAR).

As funny as it sounds, Stephanie Meyer has been a sort of muse~or inspiration. She talked about having a dream and not wanting it to end, to solve it, the before and after. Much like myself. The extension~because I need to know how she began and she will turn out~where shes going and where shes been~who shes loved and who"ll love her.. Patience has never been a virtue of mine, but I will patiently wait as long I write each word, to see where I am going....